Working on the Heart, Soul, Mind and Body: Part 6

This is my last post on Working on the Heart, Soul, Mind, and Body.

Well, on our drive back to Montrose, it was kinda quiet. Georgia and I talked about a ton of things but there were many more pauses that I noticed this time around. We stopped in Glenwood Springs, at the same place where we stopped on our way to and from Dare 2 Share I might add. While we were there, I called a few friends and asked how one was doing and the other to tell another friend happy birthday for me. As we were checking out, I paid. Georgia was not too happy about this what so ever! So told me that she was the adult and I responded with something like I'm the teen rebelling.

When we were outside, she glared at me. It wasn't like a bad glare but it was a glare like why did you do that?!? I've been glared at many times in my life, but never did I feel guilty until then. I actually felt horrible for paying for something. It bugged me that she was so upset over me paying though, and I really don't know why I felt horrible that I paid.  So as we went on with the trip, it was really quiet. I just had to say something though, and it was about what had happened. She said that it was kind and other stuff. The way  I see it though, is that it really isn't kind, I mean it is with someone else but not this time.

  Everything that she has done and her family has done and the trip to Evergreen and everything, to pay for a few drinks and snacks was nothing compared to everything they do for me. Besides, it wasn't half of how much she's over paid me, and that's what bugs me more than anything. Its being over paid and then being told that I wasn't. LOL I know what teen complains about getting money. Well, I am just one of those weird teens that really cares about lots of stuff. 

I didn't tell Georgia why I paid, and I didn't say why it wasn't kind. I really don't know why I paid, for the most part its because I like paying and no one ever lets me pay. Why I didn't say why I didn't think it was kind? Who only God knows. I just feel like I did something I knew was right but at the same time, I feel like I did something wrong. I'm pretty sure I didn't, but at the same time I don't know. I just wish that I was at peace with knowing I did the right thing or not. Should I have just let Georgia pay and know that I could have or did I do the right thing and pay because I just have this thing about paying sometimes????

Love you all and thank you,
         CarissaGrace