Resting in God

So the most amazing things have happened today, well not the most but some pretty amazing things.

 I didn't go to sleep until four this morning, because I was listening to Christian rap and Christian punk. Since Sunday after a really great friend had me listen to this Christian rap song, I have been exploring other Christian music types. I found that listening to others talk about God, I felt a little bit at ease.  I only got about three hours of sleep but it was worth it.

I had a rough start this morning because of my staying up late but it was what I needed. I know I sound crazy but its true. If I wasn't so exhausted, the last two days, then I wouldn't have found out so many things. Like how I always have a choice to choose what to do, and lately I've been making some wrong choices. I have been almost like avoiding God and my friendships. I need to fully focus on God and then work on everything else.

Through this blessing of being tired, I have realized that I have been disobeying God by not listening to Him. I got this book for Christmas called, Lady in Waiting, and its such a good book about dating and God really. Well, I read it for the first month that I had it and haven't picked it up since. For CSAPs though, I needed something to read after I was finished with my test, I could have picked anything but something about that book just keep me thinking. I read that book every time I was done, and a lot of it just opened my eyes, things that I would have missed if I wasn't sleep deprived. Like, how I cause all this drama for myself because if I was focused on God I would have a LOT less drama. I also realized how much God loves me and how much the people in my life have changed me. It was so amazing just how God used these small things to make a big difference.

After CSAPs it started to rain and I was so tired and still have things I must do, but I went to a night of fellowship and worship. I debated whether or not to go, and I really needed to and didn't want to make an excuse not to go. I ate so chocolate, to get much need energy, and when I got to the Grove I couldn't have been more thrilled. It was a very amazing night because a youth group from Oklahoma was there and they did all the worship and everything. I think my favorite part was when we each got a post-it-card and wrote what we needed prayer for and afterward, put it in this box and got a different one. We prayed for the other person's needs. I know that my needs had been prayed for, I just felt at peace half way through worship.

The other youth that was there, I was so sad to see them go. I don't know most of them but I know that we all share the same love for God and am so excited to see my brothers and sisters in Christ be so in their faith. I was in awe at just how there was no drama and nothing but love for each other. I know that I will see them all again one day but until then, I know that our generation is changing the world, one heart at a time.

I feel so at peace right now, even though I still have a million things to do. I am so grateful that I was able to spend so much time with God the last few days and just rest in Him. I am so blessed to have such resources that I get to grow in my faith and expand what I know about God. I don't know very many of you and I'm sure of that. I would like to get to know each one of you and know how God has changed your life. Send me an email at CarissaGrace1@gmail.com if you want to.

Thank you all and I love you guys,
         CarissaGrace