God's funny ways

Well to finish my week off, it just had to have some more very unexpected this happen. One would be that my youth minister's wife, Andrea, well the test results aren't back yet but they think she has Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Its a type of cancer, probably the best cancer you can get. I personal wont accept that its cancer until they have the official results. I know I am being childish and pretty silly but cancer has taken too many lives out of my life. Oh, I forgot to mention selfish.

   I first realized something was going on Wednesday morning, I was told that there was no youth group because something came up. This was pretty odd for our youth minister. It wouldn't have been the first time we had no youth group but if you knew Jason, our youth minister, he is like the most devoted youth pastor I know and if he can't come then he normally finds someone to fill-in for him. After the memo I got, I received a phone call from Georgia asking if I could babysit. Georgia asking if I can babysit is not odd, her asking if I can babysit on a Wednesday is odd. She explained what was going on, kind of. When she came to pick me up, I sat in the back with Kearyn, Andrea and Jason's daughter. While on our way to pick up Naomi, Georgia's youngest, she explained more and more about what was going on. I was taking every word in hoping that I was just dreaming. Well, I wasn't and all I could do was pray. I didn't know what to say when I first saw them, so I really didn't say anything except,"Hi." Once, maybe. I felt horrible because I couldn't muster up anything and I do mean anything. Two of the most important people in my life and I could say anything, just listen and think.

  Andrea and Jason are the busiest people I most likely will EVER know. They are so amazing and always there for you when you need someone. I can even begin to explain what they have done for me and what they mean to me. Andrea has been there when I didn't even know I needed her and she has helped me in SOOOOO many ways.  I wrote a poem about Andrea, even before I knew anything was wrong, like on Tuesday night I started it and I finished it yesterday. Oh, and Andrea is one of the most amazing writers I know. Plus she takes some of the coolest pictures! I will post the poem I wrote about Andrea too, because its not the greatest but its what came out when I started typing. There are many things I have learned from Andrea and Jason, one of them is that God will ALWAYS provide even when we don't realize it. If it wasn't for Andrea and Jason, my life would be a huge mess and I wouldn't have as much faith as I do. So thank you guys for everything and I'm sorry I didn't say much the other day.

  Wednesday night, I had gotten on Facebook to ask for prayers for Andrea and Jason from my friends. Well the second I logged on, a ton of people were asking if I knew what was going on with them. I never said what was going on, I just kept saying," They just need lots of prayers and yea." Even an adult asked me, I felt like I was the person in a story that knew everything that was going on. Yes, I did know but that's besides the point, I found out by accident. I wished everyone would just stop asking me and just pray. I didn't sleep at all that night, only God knows because I was thinking about what was going on but at the same time I just kept wandering from one thing to another. I just kept praying and praying and praying no sleep came and I was fine with that.

  Yesterday was interesting for me. I was able to write and I mean just nonstop writing. I haven't been able to do that for the longest time. I wrote a poem about everything going on and was crying and had so many emotions going onto the page. I was very anger at one stanza and at the next I was crying from sorrow. By the end of the poem I felt so much better and just more like myself. I was able to accept everything but still refuse to accept that Andrea has cancer because she may not. This is most likely one of the longest blogs I've written. I thank you for reading it and for just encouraging me to keep writing. :)


Prayer Requests-

Please pray for Andrea and her family. Please also pray for Georgia and her family because its not just Andrea and Jason who are going through it. Not the way I see it. Thank you so much :)



God bless you and may you see God every where you look,
                                   CarissaGrace