not anything

today has just been one of those days where i wish i was a child. Not
all day just after 4 this afternoon. I babysat this morning and
i enjoyed every minute of it. I have no idea why but people look up to
me and respect me. Even people older than myself. Im grateful that
they do and they know they can trust me but sometimes I wish i could
just some where, where i was nothing. Where i wasnt respected, had
very many exceptations, asked advice, looked up to or where i wasnt
just grown up. I cant find that place though. Kids look up to me and
want to follow me, friend always want advice or just say stuff that
makes me feel way too mature, adults treat me older than i really am.
I need even a one time five minute place where im not anything. I
doubt it is even possible because i dont even know. Its so much
pressure to be everything everyone wants you to be and truth is i cant
be. Since i am carissa though i am going to try because i want others
to be happy before i am. You could ask almost anyone close to me