Truth is...

   I feel like I'm failing. I'm trying my hardest to be strong and keep everything together and yet I see myself only getting weaker. The enemy knows what breaks me and how to weaken my faith. I'm trying to stand and the only thing I can hold on to is God. Being strong was how I was expected to live and then I was shown the Path of God and was told that through my weakness, God's strength will shine. I know that's the truth, because I see it everyday since I started to open my eyes to the things unseen.

  I've been told not to question God and all He does. I try not to, I know He makes all things good. I know His one and only son died on the cross for my sins, and I know He made me who I am today. God is great and the only question I want to know is why He's had so much grace on my life. Not really in my life because He's saved my life more than once and has blessed me. I don't understand, why was I important enough to save more than three times and why one of them wasn't even saved? Why do you seem to need me? What do I have to offer your Kingdom?

There are many things some people don't know about me and so many more people that really don't know anything about me. So, instead of just writing ten different paragraphs that I'm sure you don't want/ have the time to read and I just can't write so I'll make a list.
      Ten Truths:
1.)  It took me 13 years to find God, 14 1/2 years to get to know Him and 15 years to completely put my life in His hands.

2.) All I want to do is scream but I can't. Every time I try to, my voice leaves me and I'm left standing with nothing but tears.

3.) Music is what I get lost in. One song can say everything I have to say and I just tell God, " Yup, God this is it."

4.) The song I listen to when I know my faith is weak is Walk Away (maybe)- Good Charlotte. I just feel that that song brings me back to God, every time.

5.) I don't even know why I write any more, it just seems to be a waste. Yet, I still do it...

6.) Why I HATE money goes back to when I first started babysitting and it never seems to fail that my family keeps my hate of money growing stronger.

7.) When I'm told something that brings tears to my eyes, its always hard for me to reply. Even harder when its not in person because I have time to think about what was said.

8.) Its extremely hard for me to look at someone when I'm crying. Before I started going to The Grove, I could tell you how many people I cried in front of and what their full names were. Now I've cried in front of many, many people and I'm sure a great deal more to come. Most of them, I don't even know their first names.

9.) God has been telling me to open up more. I have which is kinda hard, because I used to be the person who kept everything to myself and sometimes still am.

10.) Its hard for me to tell anyone whats wrong or something about me. Even with people I trust and love, unless I feel compelled to tell you something, I most likely wont.

The truth is, I'm just a teenage girl that is lost at the moment. That's already learned that; He is my world, I love Him more than I love anyone else, He will never let me go, His love is the greatest love of all, He will love me forever, I'm accepted by Him, He will always be by my side, I will worship Him, I believe in Him, He will let the perfect man cut in, He will always protect me, He knows best and will always do great. He is God and I know He lives!
   Blessing be to you and may you see God every where you look~~ CarissaGrace