September 5th,2010

(Wrote this September 5th, 2010)

I'm the type of person that over thinks every thing, even when I know its in God's hands. This week I've been thinking about everything; my relationships,my faith, my actions, and since this morning, my legacy. Since my life took a complete change three weeks ago I've been struggling with my faith. I have grown stronger in Christ but I still feel like I'm falling. That I'm failing God, because even though I'm trying to make the best of everything, my walk seems slower and I'm craving God more and getting less chance to learn about him with others. So with my faith I know its growing because of what I've been thinking about this past week.
     Relationships:
With my past relationships I've realized how they have changed. Last year, I was the average teen. I cussed ALL the time, I was depressed and I was living in the way of the world. I had a boyfriend who I couldn't carry a conversation with, my best friends were trash mouth pot heads, and my best best friend was my ex-boyfriend who is now my current one.Now, I hang out with people who encourage my faith, help my walk, and all but one is Christ centered.(the one thats not is my fathers and my relationship but I am praying that it will be) I went to myspace to see how much I really have changed and I was shocked. It was all about my ex-boyfriend and how God wasn't real. My top friends were people that don't like who I've become. I also looked at some peoples profiles that I know have changed. I came to the conclusion that I'm really, truly happy with the choice I've made. I've always been happy with it but to really see the difference makes it easier to know that this is the right choice even if its hard.