Seasons of Life

For the past week I've been going through life changing struggles. Struggles that I couldn't have made it this far through without the help of some very dear friends. Thus being the reason I am so speachless and grateful and so thankful to God right now. Through many seasons of life, I've had to come out of my shell of "not bothering" and enter the world of "leaning on friends". I've never been the girl to call and ask for help when I truly needed it- not until someone who I look up to said they would be angry with me if I didn't ask for help when I needed it. Not even really truly needed it, just when I needed help. Because all I had to do was ask and they would do what they could if there was anything they could do.

Turns out asking for help is alot easier than it sounds. And I wasn't even thinking straight when I asked for help. I'm sure that the words I was trying to say through my tears weren't very understandable but I got the help I needed. And when I talked to them the next night, they were there to help and check up on me. Plus when I had an issue on Sunday, they didn't turn me away but helped me through that problem. I can't even begin to explain how grateful I am, or how much it means that they were there through everything. Even today they're there for me when I need them or even just to hang out.

I've known these wonderful people for two years now, and it seems like so much longer. Maybe its because I've gone through so many different seasons of life. Or maybe its because I can turn to them for anything, even if its not Godly, and point me to the cross. In every season of life we have those friends that will pray for you at two in the morning even if you're not wanting prayer. There are those people who change the same time we do and sometimes you come out on different sides of the track but you still think about them.

Well as we go through these struggles and seasons of life we have to look for the cross and the people willing to help us get there, even if its two in the morning and they have a baby to look after.  Jesus has a group of 12 that he talked to and hung out with. Then he had a group of three that he told everything. Your group of three should be people who you can call at two in the morning and know they will be there and pray for you, specaily if they can't do anything but call on God to help you through it.

Just some quick notes I've been thinking about all day :)

The voyage of me

Yes, I've changed the blog again. The reason I keep doing so is that I want the background match what I'm trying to say. The old postcard look just fits me. After all, vintage is the best style ever.



 Yesterday, I once again fell into the habit of having coffee with someone so I could talk with them. Drinking coffee was never a big deal for me until high school came along. Now coffee is my best friend. Anyway, the person I had coffee with is someone who I've grown to trust, their whole family actually. It was great to sit down and catch up because I haven't really seen them  since September.I was asked to keep blogging, what was a surprise to me. So here I am, blogging.


 I'm trying to figure out who I am, and how I react to situations. Its not that time is becoming shorter or that pressure in becoming someone I don't want to be is happening. I just want to make sure who I am will/is someone who makes good choices and stays true to being unique. After coffee yesterday, this song came on the radio it basically says how I feel at this point in life.Pretty crazy how life works out like that huh?

  Voyage of Beliefs- FM Static

I have 2 brothers and a sister, and a mother,
And a father who taught us that we should
All love one another,
We go to church on Sunday,
In a little green Hyundai,
Have some grape juice and crackers,
Then we start again on Monday

And it's all fine, and it's all well,
I really want to find what I believe for myself,
'Cause when you're gone,
And I'm still here,
I won't have you to tell me that I should be there

I'm tired of making excuses(oh oh oh),
Need to decide for myself...

What if I stumble? What if I fall?
When I'm on my way to You,
What if I need You? Who do I call?
How do I know I'll get through?
Because I don't wanna ride the fence anymore.
I wanna stand up, and shout it,
And let it be known

I have 2 fathers, and a sister and a brother,
And a mother who taught us that we should
All do unto others,
My homeroom teacher, always talks about her preacher
And she says she talks to God,
But I don't know if I believe her

And it's all fine, and it's all well,
I really want to find what I believe for myself,
'Cause when you're gone,
And I'm still here,
I won't have you to tell me that I should be there

I'm tired of making excuses(oh oh oh),
Need to decide for myself...

What if I stumble? What if I fall?
When I'm on my way to You,
What if I need You? Who do I call?
How do I know I'll get through?
Because I don't wanna ride the fence anymore.
I wanna stand up, and shout it,
And let it be known

And you can tell me,
That I can't make a difference 'cause I'm just one,
But one is all it takes to start it
And you can tell me,
That I can't change the world,
Because I'm too young,
But I won't stand here and be your target
And you can push me,
And try to knock me down, but I won't listen,
'Cause I've got nothing left to lose and,
You can hate me, for everything I'm not,
But it won't change this,
'Cause now that I'm here, I'm not moving

I'm tired of making excuses(oh oh oh),
Need to decide for myself...

What if I stumble? What if I fall?
When I'm on my way to You,
What if I need You? Who do I call?
How do I know I'll get through?
Because I don't wanna ride the fence anymore.
I wanna stand up, and shout it,
And let it be known~And for all you with email subscription will have to resubscrib,         Carissa