Seasons of Life

For the past week I've been going through life changing struggles. Struggles that I couldn't have made it this far through without the help of some very dear friends. Thus being the reason I am so speachless and grateful and so thankful to God right now. Through many seasons of life, I've had to come out of my shell of "not bothering" and enter the world of "leaning on friends". I've never been the girl to call and ask for help when I truly needed it- not until someone who I look up to said they would be angry with me if I didn't ask for help when I needed it. Not even really truly needed it, just when I needed help. Because all I had to do was ask and they would do what they could if there was anything they could do.

Turns out asking for help is alot easier than it sounds. And I wasn't even thinking straight when I asked for help. I'm sure that the words I was trying to say through my tears weren't very understandable but I got the help I needed. And when I talked to them the next night, they were there to help and check up on me. Plus when I had an issue on Sunday, they didn't turn me away but helped me through that problem. I can't even begin to explain how grateful I am, or how much it means that they were there through everything. Even today they're there for me when I need them or even just to hang out.

I've known these wonderful people for two years now, and it seems like so much longer. Maybe its because I've gone through so many different seasons of life. Or maybe its because I can turn to them for anything, even if its not Godly, and point me to the cross. In every season of life we have those friends that will pray for you at two in the morning even if you're not wanting prayer. There are those people who change the same time we do and sometimes you come out on different sides of the track but you still think about them.

Well as we go through these struggles and seasons of life we have to look for the cross and the people willing to help us get there, even if its two in the morning and they have a baby to look after.  Jesus has a group of 12 that he talked to and hung out with. Then he had a group of three that he told everything. Your group of three should be people who you can call at two in the morning and know they will be there and pray for you, specaily if they can't do anything but call on God to help you through it.

Just some quick notes I've been thinking about all day :)

The voyage of me

Yes, I've changed the blog again. The reason I keep doing so is that I want the background match what I'm trying to say. The old postcard look just fits me. After all, vintage is the best style ever.



 Yesterday, I once again fell into the habit of having coffee with someone so I could talk with them. Drinking coffee was never a big deal for me until high school came along. Now coffee is my best friend. Anyway, the person I had coffee with is someone who I've grown to trust, their whole family actually. It was great to sit down and catch up because I haven't really seen them  since September.I was asked to keep blogging, what was a surprise to me. So here I am, blogging.


 I'm trying to figure out who I am, and how I react to situations. Its not that time is becoming shorter or that pressure in becoming someone I don't want to be is happening. I just want to make sure who I am will/is someone who makes good choices and stays true to being unique. After coffee yesterday, this song came on the radio it basically says how I feel at this point in life.Pretty crazy how life works out like that huh?

  Voyage of Beliefs- FM Static

I have 2 brothers and a sister, and a mother,
And a father who taught us that we should
All love one another,
We go to church on Sunday,
In a little green Hyundai,
Have some grape juice and crackers,
Then we start again on Monday

And it's all fine, and it's all well,
I really want to find what I believe for myself,
'Cause when you're gone,
And I'm still here,
I won't have you to tell me that I should be there

I'm tired of making excuses(oh oh oh),
Need to decide for myself...

What if I stumble? What if I fall?
When I'm on my way to You,
What if I need You? Who do I call?
How do I know I'll get through?
Because I don't wanna ride the fence anymore.
I wanna stand up, and shout it,
And let it be known

I have 2 fathers, and a sister and a brother,
And a mother who taught us that we should
All do unto others,
My homeroom teacher, always talks about her preacher
And she says she talks to God,
But I don't know if I believe her

And it's all fine, and it's all well,
I really want to find what I believe for myself,
'Cause when you're gone,
And I'm still here,
I won't have you to tell me that I should be there

I'm tired of making excuses(oh oh oh),
Need to decide for myself...

What if I stumble? What if I fall?
When I'm on my way to You,
What if I need You? Who do I call?
How do I know I'll get through?
Because I don't wanna ride the fence anymore.
I wanna stand up, and shout it,
And let it be known

And you can tell me,
That I can't make a difference 'cause I'm just one,
But one is all it takes to start it
And you can tell me,
That I can't change the world,
Because I'm too young,
But I won't stand here and be your target
And you can push me,
And try to knock me down, but I won't listen,
'Cause I've got nothing left to lose and,
You can hate me, for everything I'm not,
But it won't change this,
'Cause now that I'm here, I'm not moving

I'm tired of making excuses(oh oh oh),
Need to decide for myself...

What if I stumble? What if I fall?
When I'm on my way to You,
What if I need You? Who do I call?
How do I know I'll get through?
Because I don't wanna ride the fence anymore.
I wanna stand up, and shout it,
And let it be known~And for all you with email subscription will have to resubscrib,         Carissa

One of those days.

    Ever wake up feeling like everything is going to be great? That no matter what happens, today is going to be a great day? Well I just love those day! And thats how I woke up this morning. Maybe it was the fact I woke up at 5:30 or maybe it was the fact I woke up to my alarm telling me," Good Morning Beautiful". Whatever it was, it made my day. Starting out with my coffee tasting AMAZING and that hardly ever happens.(I can't ever find the perfect medium of coffee grinds) Then school was great, actually it was better then great it was stupendous. I had a teacher who took one of my original writing pieces and made me a copy of hers. :) Is there a better complement from a teacher than that? And everything else just fell into place.


   Not only has today been perfect but the last week and a half has just been better than perfect. I know why, and yes I'm going to share. Since June of last year, I've had this constant struggle in my life. It was learning to live with someone that I couldn't stand. Well that person is out of my life. I haven't really told anyone except my friends from school. It's not that the person who left was the source of all my problems but it did make my life more difficult having them here. I'm actually grateful that they were here. Not that the struggling was great but that the lessons I learned during that time were life changing.Really life changing. Quite frankly I'm grateful for this time during the eye of the storm because I know that I'm going to struggle and struggle through this life.( Won't expect anything more or less) But the rewards for though struggles are going to be more than worth it. Or at least I think so :)

  Basically, right now in my life, all I can do is praise God. I've fought Him for the last six months about not being able to learn anything from my last rough patch but God pulled through. And was right. (Like always!) So I'm just gonna TRY and listen to what He's got to say. Because for the longest time, my faith didn't define me but made me who I was and how I acted. I miss that so much! Not the faith, still got that. But always knowing what to do 'cause I had people who I met with who encouraged my faith and even when I wasn't all that good of a Christian, (whatever that means) I was able to talk to them about why I wasn't so tight with God. Now I have people who are amazing in my life and help me but I know that I'm not always encouraging other people to follow God. Mainly its my actions that show who I'm fighting for at that moment in time. God or the Enemy that's who you fight for- no gray areas when it comes down to it. There isn't ever any fine print to back up any one's case either.

  But that's where you can choose which case you want everyone to know you by. Whether you believe in God or not is between you and Him. No one can believe for you and no one can make that choice for you. In this life we are always finding ways to take some one's choice away. I get it, sometimes they can't answer for themselves or you think you know best. Well people can choice when you get your driver's license, if you graduate from high school, how old you have to be in order to make decision But no one can make you fight for God, that's all on you. That's just one lesson I've picked up through my last rough patch. Many, many more to come :)

   Hope my rambling made some sense and I hope that tomorrow you wake up and get the feeling like everything is going to be great :)
            Carissa :)

Blindly Trusting

    Yesterday was a strange day, well more strange than most days. I should start by saying that I have only two classes up stairs: 2nd and 3rd hour. Well I felt the need to wear heels and dress up a tad bit.  Going up and down stairs in heels really isn't my strong suit but I haven't fallen flat on my face, yet.  So of course I forgot my binder for third hour and needed to go to my locker, which is down stairs. On my second trip up stairs, I came to some what of a collision. A girl who messed up her knee was trying to go down the second flight of stairs . Her friend was attempting to help her and unfortunately the stair case that we were on happens to be really narrow. So half way between the flight of stairs we run into each other. With the shoes I was wearing, I couldn't walk backwards and the girl's friend really could go backwards either. Thus creating a weird bound between the two of us. Almost simultaneously she reached for my hand as I reached for hers. She put blind trust into the hands of a stranger, on a flight of stairs. Most people wouldn't do this specially to lean on that stranger for help. I helped her down a few stairs then went to class amazed at how strangely perfect that moment was.

     And how does this relate to God in anyway? Well its simple. I'm amazed that some girl I've never met can put trust blindly into the hands of a stranger and know everything will be okay, but yet I have blindly put my faith and trust in God that many people don't believe in. So really I'm amazed that so many people can truly just throw all trust towards God and know everything will be okay. I don't know how many times  I've asked for guidance or forgiveness from God but I know that no matter what happens everything will be okay. Because it can be seen from the point of view that I am blindly putting trust into God's hand and hoping everything will be okay. I am. I am putting trust into God's hands on a flight of stairs knowing that He will help me when I'm hurt and knowing everything will be okay or even better in the end.

(Hope this post was better than the last :)

Happily trusting blindly,
         Rissa

What is LIFE?

WELL since my changing from my old-self to my new self, I've found what I value more everyday. Only thing I've learned this new year is that life is short and boy is it not lived enough!

L- laughing everyday. Learn something new every chance I get. Love every moment, and live in the moment.
I- invest time in the good things. invaluable time spent with friends. investigate everything. instead of
      anger/frustration, in goes happiness/understanding.
F-finding the good in others. finding joy in tough moments. figuring out problems.falling and rising. finding
       my true self.
E- enjoying every moment. events don't define me. emotionally growing. emitting wisdom and knowledge.
       enjoying who I am.


This is just a short message.

Catch you next time-
   Carissa :)