Is it just a tea? NO! Its life changing

The meaning of Mother's Day to me two weeks ago: Can we just skip it this year? Pretty please?!?

   So this is my full confession to what I've been avoiding talking about. I'm struggling with, well just people I look up to.Really, well mainly the women in my life that are motherly figures. For the past two weeks I have been struggling with this and today, of course, was a mother's day tea thing. I was SO not looking forward to it but was invited to go.  Mother's Day really doesn't matter around my house, although the last two years we have celebrated it with ladies that have helped each one of us kids. Well this year, we are all making our own plans but none of them involving Mother's Day for the most part.

Since I went to the Tea, God was working through the women there. Did I see this coming? I really should of, because God never lets me down. I was extremely nervous and I think most of it was because I didn't want to know why I was struggling. One thing that they did was to think of one word that you value in a relationship. I thought of many, many words but one word really stuck which was REAL. I just said,"I don't know." When we had to share our words, I'm sorry I lied because I did know. I didn't think my word was well, real enough. 

Our women's pastor was giving us this message about Friendships. Like with everyone in my life, God spoke through her and boy was it loud. I think many people realized a lot today and for me I also realized why I was struggling. So what's my confession? I have been struggling with knowing that not every person I look up to is going to let me down, so to say. That there are a few ladies in my life that enjoy who I am and they can help me realize what to love about myself.

My meaning of Mother's Day today: I'm grateful,blessed and encouraged because I have so many mothers in Christ!