I know how crazy my last post sounded. All I asked was if you ever realized how much children wanted to learn. I asked you to listen to children's questions, so did you? I never really noticed what type of questions children asked until I was babysitting last week.
The kids and I, were making crafts. It might have just been the craziest thing I ever did, I had fun! What was that craziness, well the kids were bored and it was kinda cold outside. Instead of finding something easy and simple to do, I thought it would be fun to make pet rocks. It was something I did in 5th grade for a science project. The oldest two had SO much fun with it, but the oldest, Luke, sent many questions my way. He wanted to know how the hot glue gun worked and why it was so hot. He wanted to know how that happened and this happen. I realized that he was asking questions that I had never really asked. Luke was asking questions that he might need answers to later in life.
Little Miss Sarah, the middle child, was asking questions about me. Like why I never call my mom just my dad. Of course when I asked with that she didn't have a phone where she was, both Luke and Sarah wanted to know why. Sarah made comments like she had only seen my dad and never my mom, then questioned why. I really don't know how to answer her questions without it bring up even more questions. Sarah was asking questions about my life, so she could understand me better, maybe.
Naomi, the youngest, all of her questions were about what was going to happen that night. If I was putting them to bed, if they had to take a bath, if we could do three little monkeys and things about what was going to happen very soon. I found it really surprising that all three of them kept asking questions but each question was as different as they were. But at the same time each question they asked fell into a certain group, more of a style of question I guess.
The passed few days, I have been realizing that we ALL have a certain type of style of questions that we ask. Most of my questions are sarcastic and when they aren't, I am asking things like: when,why,who,where and is everything okay. I never really ask how this works or why that works. In what ways do you question?
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
Realize Part:1
Ever notice how much children want to learn? They want to know how things work and why they do those things. I love how sometimes they can't explain what their question is until you help them. Although while you're trying to help them, you don't really know what you're helping with.
Just pay attention to the questions they ask and you will see :)
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Just pay attention to the questions they ask and you will see :)
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Saturday, April 16, 2011
Time,Choices, and Boys ( oh my!)
Life passes by way,WAY too fast. Being just a teen, I realize this more all the time and at the moment feel really old. I know, I'm not that old and don't know what old really means but so much has changed in such a small amount in time.
This time last year, I was just accepting that I needed to break it off with this boy and questioning whether or not I was ready to be baptized. Well, I was also looking for God and knowing that God can make everything better. For the first time I followed some one's advice, which was some really, really great advice. I was a totally different person and I'm glad that I have changed. I ended up getting baptized on April 24th, and I was extremely nervous.
As the months went on, I found a great mentor. Who lead me to an other great mentor, although my first real mentor, I hardly ever know what to say when I see her. I'm always worried that I wont say the right thing or that I will just say something incredible stupid, so I really don't say anything to her. Silly, I know but anyways, I changed in four months and really started following Christ. I made a really huge mistake about five months ago, that has forever changed my life. Through the last four months, I have been trying to forgive myself for it and I can gladly say that I did less than a month ago.
Through this one year, I have been very blessed to meet some amazing people, kids, and face great opportunities. Since my heartbreak from last year, I have found that all I need is Jesus but that hope for a family has been placed in God's hands. I have learned so much from teaching and from really great friends/mentors, but I still have so much more to learn.
The feeling of having to explain myself almost always comes when I have to face something I want to avoid. One of those times came tonight, I have been avoiding a boy. This boy is funny and I really, really liked him a year ago, but we had a falling out and hadn't talked for months. A completely different girl fell for this boy and I am not that same silly little girl anymore nor do I ever want to be her. Long story short, I saw him and hoped that he wasn't going to where I needed to be, but of course, did. Cowardly, I hid from him behind someone I knew and didn't realize who she was talking to. Well, it happened that who I was hiding behind was a friend/mentor and the person she was talking to was someone I was/am close to. I almost laughed because I remembered something she once told me. It was something like,Okay you know you know but when you come to me or Georgia with boy problems, we are going to tell you to pray about it. Was I praying about this boy? No not really. When I did pray about it was I praying for the right things? No I don't think so. Is this boy marriage material? No, not with what the Bible says. So why am I even bothering with these feelings? Simply because I am a young woman who isn't all that focused on God.
After they were done talking I felt like I had to explain why I was trying to hide. Of course, it turned into a great conversation, but my feelings for him became more confusing. I know, I know I wont ever marry this boy nor will we ever be really good friends but I still want to talk to him and hang out with him.
Its funny how much time I am not using for God. Even just hanging out, I can bring up God but there are some people I am fearful about talking about it. That boy is one of those people and its not good.
Here I am going on and on about nothing and most of it is about a boy. What is this CRAZINESS!?!?! I must say that I am struggling with a few things and I really don't want to talk about them, with anyone. I am doing a bible study with a friend, and it starts tomorrow. Being nervous about it isn't what I thought I would feel about it but it is about relationships. The one thing that has been on my struggling list the past two weeks and now I get to see who else has this problem. Hoping and praying it all goes well.
Choices. We all have to face them each and everyday and I don't like making a decision on choices I'm given. You can ask just about anyone that knows me, and when I do make a decision I am not always the happiest about it. I prefer someone else to make the decision because that way I know what they want, and know that they are happy about it. Well, a few choices have been throw at my life and I am not really looking forward to making those decisions. One being that I have to choose to go to Texas or not and I am almost voting for not. The second but maybe biggest choice I have is to either go on a mission trip for a few days during summer or teaching at a camp for kids. I really want to do both but I am going to avoid making that choice until the very last second.
Hope all is well for everyone of you, thanks for reading.
Lots of love,
CarissaGrace
This time last year, I was just accepting that I needed to break it off with this boy and questioning whether or not I was ready to be baptized. Well, I was also looking for God and knowing that God can make everything better. For the first time I followed some one's advice, which was some really, really great advice. I was a totally different person and I'm glad that I have changed. I ended up getting baptized on April 24th, and I was extremely nervous.
As the months went on, I found a great mentor. Who lead me to an other great mentor, although my first real mentor, I hardly ever know what to say when I see her. I'm always worried that I wont say the right thing or that I will just say something incredible stupid, so I really don't say anything to her. Silly, I know but anyways, I changed in four months and really started following Christ. I made a really huge mistake about five months ago, that has forever changed my life. Through the last four months, I have been trying to forgive myself for it and I can gladly say that I did less than a month ago.
Through this one year, I have been very blessed to meet some amazing people, kids, and face great opportunities. Since my heartbreak from last year, I have found that all I need is Jesus but that hope for a family has been placed in God's hands. I have learned so much from teaching and from really great friends/mentors, but I still have so much more to learn.
The feeling of having to explain myself almost always comes when I have to face something I want to avoid. One of those times came tonight, I have been avoiding a boy. This boy is funny and I really, really liked him a year ago, but we had a falling out and hadn't talked for months. A completely different girl fell for this boy and I am not that same silly little girl anymore nor do I ever want to be her. Long story short, I saw him and hoped that he wasn't going to where I needed to be, but of course, did. Cowardly, I hid from him behind someone I knew and didn't realize who she was talking to. Well, it happened that who I was hiding behind was a friend/mentor and the person she was talking to was someone I was/am close to. I almost laughed because I remembered something she once told me. It was something like,Okay you know you know but when you come to me or Georgia with boy problems, we are going to tell you to pray about it. Was I praying about this boy? No not really. When I did pray about it was I praying for the right things? No I don't think so. Is this boy marriage material? No, not with what the Bible says. So why am I even bothering with these feelings? Simply because I am a young woman who isn't all that focused on God.
After they were done talking I felt like I had to explain why I was trying to hide. Of course, it turned into a great conversation, but my feelings for him became more confusing. I know, I know I wont ever marry this boy nor will we ever be really good friends but I still want to talk to him and hang out with him.
Its funny how much time I am not using for God. Even just hanging out, I can bring up God but there are some people I am fearful about talking about it. That boy is one of those people and its not good.
Here I am going on and on about nothing and most of it is about a boy. What is this CRAZINESS!?!?! I must say that I am struggling with a few things and I really don't want to talk about them, with anyone. I am doing a bible study with a friend, and it starts tomorrow. Being nervous about it isn't what I thought I would feel about it but it is about relationships. The one thing that has been on my struggling list the past two weeks and now I get to see who else has this problem. Hoping and praying it all goes well.
Choices. We all have to face them each and everyday and I don't like making a decision on choices I'm given. You can ask just about anyone that knows me, and when I do make a decision I am not always the happiest about it. I prefer someone else to make the decision because that way I know what they want, and know that they are happy about it. Well, a few choices have been throw at my life and I am not really looking forward to making those decisions. One being that I have to choose to go to Texas or not and I am almost voting for not. The second but maybe biggest choice I have is to either go on a mission trip for a few days during summer or teaching at a camp for kids. I really want to do both but I am going to avoid making that choice until the very last second.
Hope all is well for everyone of you, thanks for reading.
Lots of love,
CarissaGrace
Friday, April 8, 2011
Rapidly Changing
My life and heart is rapidly changing and I really can't stop it. I don't want to either, because with each moment a lesson is learned or just being lived. I've took sometime off of my every week route and it has took a ton of effort but was worth every ounce.
I've noticed that I don't hang out with my friends because I am babysitting or teaching. I've missed a lot of amazing times because I just wanted to be the best I could be during though times, well my youth minister gave some great advice that worked. Crazy how it works when you listen huh?!? Well the advice was, that if the kids give me energy and help me then I should hang out with my friends and not let that get in the way. This month I am teaching Kindergarten through 2nd and I didn't sleep at all Saturday night because I couldn't stop thinking. My youth minister was right, and the kids just made almost everything better while prayer and hanging out with friends made everything else better.
I hung out with two friends for two days about an hour from where I live, and it was such a nice break. Just to be some where that I don't or haven't spent a ton of time and don't really know that many people who live there. God showed me how much the little moments matter, and boy do they matter. Only twice or maybe three times, since I've gotten my cell phone have I not been on it at least five times a day. Both times I was away from home, getting to know people I've never met and enjoying the little moments. Guess I should take in everything more in person than through my cell.
Being a teenage girl in the worldly-world, its hard not to have a boyfriend sometimes. I'm not the only to struggle with this. My friend Nikki and I are starting a Bible Study on a book I was given for Christmas this past year. Its called Lady in Waiting by Jackie Kendall and Debby Jones. Its such a great book, and has made a deep impression on my heart. Its about becoming Mrs.Right when you're waiting for Mr.Right, all the while helping you put Christ first in your life. Its a great book for any Christian women, and with the Bible Study I get to create better friendships.
Music, every type of music has been played in my iTunes this past week. All Christian but Christian in every form has been played. I don't really know why I have been listening to so much music, because even in my sleep I'm listening to Christian Rap and Rock. I'm enjoying it though, because some things I can't say are right there in song. Andrea, an amazing women who has change my life, posted Lead Me by Sanctus Real on her blog the other day. I have heard this song many times but haven't really noticed it, I guess. Well maybe it was from all the husband talk over the two days I hung out with my two friends or if it was the Bible Study but I really listened to it this time. It really has a great meaning to it, and hopefully Sanctus Real will play it when they come to Night Vision this summer.
I know I keep going from this to that but I am super hyper and ready to write. I heard this song on Pandora a few months ago and has become one of my favorite songs. Its Thank You by 33Miles, and it really says everything I have to say right now. Just thanking God for everything and putting Him first before anything. I love you all and thank you.
Blessings : )
I've noticed that I don't hang out with my friends because I am babysitting or teaching. I've missed a lot of amazing times because I just wanted to be the best I could be during though times, well my youth minister gave some great advice that worked. Crazy how it works when you listen huh?!? Well the advice was, that if the kids give me energy and help me then I should hang out with my friends and not let that get in the way. This month I am teaching Kindergarten through 2nd and I didn't sleep at all Saturday night because I couldn't stop thinking. My youth minister was right, and the kids just made almost everything better while prayer and hanging out with friends made everything else better.
I hung out with two friends for two days about an hour from where I live, and it was such a nice break. Just to be some where that I don't or haven't spent a ton of time and don't really know that many people who live there. God showed me how much the little moments matter, and boy do they matter. Only twice or maybe three times, since I've gotten my cell phone have I not been on it at least five times a day. Both times I was away from home, getting to know people I've never met and enjoying the little moments. Guess I should take in everything more in person than through my cell.
Being a teenage girl in the worldly-world, its hard not to have a boyfriend sometimes. I'm not the only to struggle with this. My friend Nikki and I are starting a Bible Study on a book I was given for Christmas this past year. Its called Lady in Waiting by Jackie Kendall and Debby Jones. Its such a great book, and has made a deep impression on my heart. Its about becoming Mrs.Right when you're waiting for Mr.Right, all the while helping you put Christ first in your life. Its a great book for any Christian women, and with the Bible Study I get to create better friendships.
Music, every type of music has been played in my iTunes this past week. All Christian but Christian in every form has been played. I don't really know why I have been listening to so much music, because even in my sleep I'm listening to Christian Rap and Rock. I'm enjoying it though, because some things I can't say are right there in song. Andrea, an amazing women who has change my life, posted Lead Me by Sanctus Real on her blog the other day. I have heard this song many times but haven't really noticed it, I guess. Well maybe it was from all the husband talk over the two days I hung out with my two friends or if it was the Bible Study but I really listened to it this time. It really has a great meaning to it, and hopefully Sanctus Real will play it when they come to Night Vision this summer.
I know I keep going from this to that but I am super hyper and ready to write. I heard this song on Pandora a few months ago and has become one of my favorite songs. Its Thank You by 33Miles, and it really says everything I have to say right now. Just thanking God for everything and putting Him first before anything. I love you all and thank you.
Blessings : )
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
A glimpse of Heaven
The Love of my life right now at this very second is Jesus!
This past Sunday, I was having a hard time. Well nothing was going right and I called some one and asked if they could take me to church. I was so nervous when I was on the phone that I was shaking, which was weird because the person I was talking to is the person I am closest with. Being so bitter at that moment, I vented at them. I felt so horrible because she had a much harder week to deal with than I did, I'm pretty sure anyways... Well, she prayed for me and then everything got better as the day went on.
Its really amazing on how a single prayer changes everything even if it takes time. God has this way of making everything better through Bible Stories, worship, His word and for me, through children a lot of the time. We couldn't ask for more love or more acceptance that God gives us all. I realized a lot of things I need to do in my life from the last three days.
So I should start by saying that God showed me a small glimpse of heaven on Sunday morning. I just got done teaching and was going to church. I walked outside and of course I saw two little children that have changed my life forever. Ky-Ky and Creidey were racing I think, and I saw both of them. Ky and I ran towards each other with open arms and I hugged him and spun around. I hugged Creidey and walked with them to check-in. I was just going to leave them and go to church but Creide with his blue eyes asked if I could go with them. I could never say no to any of those kids if it was/is a simple request. I walked hand-in-hand with Creide and it felt so nice to be with the kids again.
As I walked to church, I realized something very big in those little moments; God was showing me what Heaven was going to be like, a very,very, extremely small feeling of what it was going to be like to be with Jesus. I realized that some day I would be running into the arms of my Saviour and I would be walking hand-in-hand with Him. One of the greatest parts about it though, was that it was sunny during that time and after church it was raining and really windy. God not only has perfect timing, but He will gladly show you He does.
I have lots to say and one of them is that I am sorry I haven't posted anything for a week or so. I couldn't write anything for what seem like ever but that has given me a ton of time to catch up with friends. A bitter-sweet I guess you could say.
I love you all and hope that everything goes well.
Blessing,
This past Sunday, I was having a hard time. Well nothing was going right and I called some one and asked if they could take me to church. I was so nervous when I was on the phone that I was shaking, which was weird because the person I was talking to is the person I am closest with. Being so bitter at that moment, I vented at them. I felt so horrible because she had a much harder week to deal with than I did, I'm pretty sure anyways... Well, she prayed for me and then everything got better as the day went on.
Its really amazing on how a single prayer changes everything even if it takes time. God has this way of making everything better through Bible Stories, worship, His word and for me, through children a lot of the time. We couldn't ask for more love or more acceptance that God gives us all. I realized a lot of things I need to do in my life from the last three days.
So I should start by saying that God showed me a small glimpse of heaven on Sunday morning. I just got done teaching and was going to church. I walked outside and of course I saw two little children that have changed my life forever. Ky-Ky and Creidey were racing I think, and I saw both of them. Ky and I ran towards each other with open arms and I hugged him and spun around. I hugged Creidey and walked with them to check-in. I was just going to leave them and go to church but Creide with his blue eyes asked if I could go with them. I could never say no to any of those kids if it was/is a simple request. I walked hand-in-hand with Creide and it felt so nice to be with the kids again.
As I walked to church, I realized something very big in those little moments; God was showing me what Heaven was going to be like, a very,very, extremely small feeling of what it was going to be like to be with Jesus. I realized that some day I would be running into the arms of my Saviour and I would be walking hand-in-hand with Him. One of the greatest parts about it though, was that it was sunny during that time and after church it was raining and really windy. God not only has perfect timing, but He will gladly show you He does.
I have lots to say and one of them is that I am sorry I haven't posted anything for a week or so. I couldn't write anything for what seem like ever but that has given me a ton of time to catch up with friends. A bitter-sweet I guess you could say.
I love you all and hope that everything goes well.
Blessing,
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