What it used to be like two months ago

Wrote October 6th,2010

  All together, the past two weeks have been pretty awesome. I didn't spend much time at home and it felt right. I haven't helped out in Grace Kids for two weekends now and I don't feel bad or feel like my faith has weaked.Its great. God has been pushing me in a different direction and I'm going with it. I have no idea where He's leading me but He knows the way. I had my life figured out for the most part and now I have no idea what I am doing tomorrow besides following Him. I'm loving it! I wanted to control my life and since I let go, its been amazing and I hear God more.

I've been spending a LOT of time babysitting, and I absolutely love it. It's defiantly helped my faith grow and its created many different relationships that I am so blessed to have. God is now fully in control and I never want to "drive" my life again. God speaks to me all the time and I'm sure He always did, I just didn't listen. With each new day, I feel more connected with God and more like myself.

For the past month people have been telling me that I'm a great role model and that I am wise. It is hard for me to accept a complement, which means I try to argue with who ever says it. God has a funny way of showing me what He thinks or wants me to do.