One of those days.

    Ever wake up feeling like everything is going to be great? That no matter what happens, today is going to be a great day? Well I just love those day! And thats how I woke up this morning. Maybe it was the fact I woke up at 5:30 or maybe it was the fact I woke up to my alarm telling me," Good Morning Beautiful". Whatever it was, it made my day. Starting out with my coffee tasting AMAZING and that hardly ever happens.(I can't ever find the perfect medium of coffee grinds) Then school was great, actually it was better then great it was stupendous. I had a teacher who took one of my original writing pieces and made me a copy of hers. :) Is there a better complement from a teacher than that? And everything else just fell into place.


   Not only has today been perfect but the last week and a half has just been better than perfect. I know why, and yes I'm going to share. Since June of last year, I've had this constant struggle in my life. It was learning to live with someone that I couldn't stand. Well that person is out of my life. I haven't really told anyone except my friends from school. It's not that the person who left was the source of all my problems but it did make my life more difficult having them here. I'm actually grateful that they were here. Not that the struggling was great but that the lessons I learned during that time were life changing.Really life changing. Quite frankly I'm grateful for this time during the eye of the storm because I know that I'm going to struggle and struggle through this life.( Won't expect anything more or less) But the rewards for though struggles are going to be more than worth it. Or at least I think so :)

  Basically, right now in my life, all I can do is praise God. I've fought Him for the last six months about not being able to learn anything from my last rough patch but God pulled through. And was right. (Like always!) So I'm just gonna TRY and listen to what He's got to say. Because for the longest time, my faith didn't define me but made me who I was and how I acted. I miss that so much! Not the faith, still got that. But always knowing what to do 'cause I had people who I met with who encouraged my faith and even when I wasn't all that good of a Christian, (whatever that means) I was able to talk to them about why I wasn't so tight with God. Now I have people who are amazing in my life and help me but I know that I'm not always encouraging other people to follow God. Mainly its my actions that show who I'm fighting for at that moment in time. God or the Enemy that's who you fight for- no gray areas when it comes down to it. There isn't ever any fine print to back up any one's case either.

  But that's where you can choose which case you want everyone to know you by. Whether you believe in God or not is between you and Him. No one can believe for you and no one can make that choice for you. In this life we are always finding ways to take some one's choice away. I get it, sometimes they can't answer for themselves or you think you know best. Well people can choice when you get your driver's license, if you graduate from high school, how old you have to be in order to make decision But no one can make you fight for God, that's all on you. That's just one lesson I've picked up through my last rough patch. Many, many more to come :)

   Hope my rambling made some sense and I hope that tomorrow you wake up and get the feeling like everything is going to be great :)
            Carissa :)

Blindly Trusting

    Yesterday was a strange day, well more strange than most days. I should start by saying that I have only two classes up stairs: 2nd and 3rd hour. Well I felt the need to wear heels and dress up a tad bit.  Going up and down stairs in heels really isn't my strong suit but I haven't fallen flat on my face, yet.  So of course I forgot my binder for third hour and needed to go to my locker, which is down stairs. On my second trip up stairs, I came to some what of a collision. A girl who messed up her knee was trying to go down the second flight of stairs . Her friend was attempting to help her and unfortunately the stair case that we were on happens to be really narrow. So half way between the flight of stairs we run into each other. With the shoes I was wearing, I couldn't walk backwards and the girl's friend really could go backwards either. Thus creating a weird bound between the two of us. Almost simultaneously she reached for my hand as I reached for hers. She put blind trust into the hands of a stranger, on a flight of stairs. Most people wouldn't do this specially to lean on that stranger for help. I helped her down a few stairs then went to class amazed at how strangely perfect that moment was.

     And how does this relate to God in anyway? Well its simple. I'm amazed that some girl I've never met can put trust blindly into the hands of a stranger and know everything will be okay, but yet I have blindly put my faith and trust in God that many people don't believe in. So really I'm amazed that so many people can truly just throw all trust towards God and know everything will be okay. I don't know how many times  I've asked for guidance or forgiveness from God but I know that no matter what happens everything will be okay. Because it can be seen from the point of view that I am blindly putting trust into God's hand and hoping everything will be okay. I am. I am putting trust into God's hands on a flight of stairs knowing that He will help me when I'm hurt and knowing everything will be okay or even better in the end.

(Hope this post was better than the last :)

Happily trusting blindly,
         Rissa

What is LIFE?

WELL since my changing from my old-self to my new self, I've found what I value more everyday. Only thing I've learned this new year is that life is short and boy is it not lived enough!

L- laughing everyday. Learn something new every chance I get. Love every moment, and live in the moment.
I- invest time in the good things. invaluable time spent with friends. investigate everything. instead of
      anger/frustration, in goes happiness/understanding.
F-finding the good in others. finding joy in tough moments. figuring out problems.falling and rising. finding
       my true self.
E- enjoying every moment. events don't define me. emotionally growing. emitting wisdom and knowledge.
       enjoying who I am.


This is just a short message.

Catch you next time-
   Carissa :)