A new start :)

I really don't know how to say, more of write, how amazing and blessed my week has been. I didn't fall as many times as the weeks before and I'm following God again. I've made a new friend who has been such a help to staying on the right path. Many opportunities have presented themselves where I can learn and share about Jesus. And of course, I'm finding myself once again.


SO in the process of making God my everything, I've made a goal to memorize a Bible verse everyday. Therefore, in a year I will know 365 verses that I really tried to remember and not just got stuck in my head. How can I do this, since I feel like Dory off Nemo?? I read my Bible, pick the verse that jumps out and start saying over and over. Since I use my phone so often, I take a picture of the verse (after I write it on my hand or something) and save it to my phone as my background.  It seems to be working and indeed it is awesome :)


With being in public school for the first time since I've been saved has been kinda hard. I know I've talked about how I've fallen and everything but I haven't told you how amazing my Godly friends are.  When I talked to Jason, youth pastor, last Saturday he suggested that a Bible study be started during the week. I prayed about it a lot that night and excitement started to grow as I felt God's hand on it. Presenting this idea to some of the High Schoolers, and one of my friends said he would lead it if we wanted him to.  I can't tell you how relieved I was not having to lead and plan it. Not only this friend but all of my friends are just making it easier to stay close with Jesus and live the life God's called me to live.


Sharing about Jesus' love has always been a joy, but being in a place where the enemy is so strong its hard. To me, talking about God or Jesus in a good way is a form of cussing to everyone at school and actually cussing is their god, their idol. Once I do share about Jesus, everything gets better and there's just a little more light in the school. This guy named Dustin is a friend who is finding his way to God. Last week he came up to me with this huge grin, giving me the biggest hug possible. He had prayed for the first time and wanted to know what time the Grove met for youth group.  I was so thrilled because this guy wanted to know more about God.

There has just been a ton of questions coming from my friends that don't really know God, wanting to know more about Him and most of them start after I read my Bible before school on morning. I was literally shaking with fiery from something that had happened on the way to school. And it being the Monday after I said yes to making God my center again, I brought out a Bible and looked for the part that has scripture to read when you are anger. Psalms 4:4 was the first one I saw and soon it became my verse for the next four days. I carried it around all day and everyone wanted to know why. Each answer was worded differently but had to same meaning, I needed God. It was pretty great to have so many questions about God.


Just from this past week, I've seen the difference in just holding my Bible at school. I think there are more people who have been burned by Christians and don't want anything to do with God because of them, than people who don't want anything to do with God because of any other reason. It breaks my heart. And I hope I'm not turning anyone away from God.

I actually have to get going but thank you for reading this and not calling me out on every misspelling and grammar error. You are awesome :)